"Is it true I am HIV positive?" I asked the lady in the white lab coat.
"As per the test, it shows you are HIV positive." She replied.
I left the place immediately immediately. I had no interest in further discussion or counselling. I had drawn my own conclusions and I would decide my next course of action without influence from anybody. This was my life, though it wasn't life anymore, and I had a mandate to do what best suited me in my new condition.
Suicide! Suicide! Suicide! Suicide!
This is what was running running in my mind. I would never be a host to the deadly virus, neither would I stand the disappointment from people around me. I would have to come up with an amicable solution to put these 'evils' to death: keep off daily pills, sickness everyday, growing thin and being disowned, to mention but a few of the consequences.
Days passed, weeks and then months; and the ninth or so month is when I came to my senses. At last I could see clearly that death was not a solution but that living would bring forth what is best for me and what would give me peace.
This is the time when I kept my ears deaf over all the negative sorts of things that people say about antiretrovirals (ARVs): side effects, nausea, dizziness, sores, vomiting, pot belly growth... the list is endless.
1st August of 2016, will remain an untampered page in my life's memories. This was the turning point of my life. This was the time when my eyes were opened and saw a great future in me, which was only possible if I agreed to start and adhere to medication. I am telling you, life has never been the same again.
The past few months, close to a year now, have been a great success; I have grown strong, healthy and more importantly, my CD4 count has risen by about three times and I've achieved viral suppression. I have even gained confidence to talk about my status without fear... I think they must have made courage an ingredient in the ARV!
Now I am in a better position to work on my dreams, live a stress free life and be of good health. In under a year, I have made hundreds of achievements (birthday being one) and I am convinced that after a year of living with HIV I will have achieved more!
My appeal to people out there, who are stuck in a pool of denial and confusion, is to make a positive decision to start medication. Medication is the only way out of trouble, the troubles of HIV. Live a stress free, healthy and 'medicated' life and keep HIV away!
A pill a day, HIV away!
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