Many things have been lost since I was diagnosed and disclosed myself with HIV but seeing where I am right now, I can truly say that I have lost some things, but these are those that I actually never needed - like fake friends, unsatisfying lifestyle, discontented relationships, unwanted affairs and that extreme feeling of loneliness and the guilt of engaging into so many bad habits that led me to be more and more lost.
Now, I have gained some things that I never could have imagined.. Loving myself even more, valuing life to its fullest, helping without reservations, being with people who treat me as more than family, and being contented, simple and happy even though I have not the richest of possessions and need to be on top of everything. To be accepted and understood and be treated equally even though some are still clueless of my condition.
I am simply satisfied with what I have at the moment and where I am right now, with the things I do, people I meet, and things I say, if not to inspire but to open peoples' minds as well. And even if there is more to what I am getting I would not deprive myself into attaining the blessings here after for embracing my new life.
It may not always be smooth sailing, there are moments when I still question my integrity and steadfastness but hey -- that is all part of the journey and that makes it even.more worthwhile.
I am Billy and I am happy and free - even with HIV.